Title: several ways to die trying
Degrassi: Now or Never. Overall focus is on Fiona/Holly J, Bianca/Adam, but there are bits and pieces for Jenna, Anya, Imogen, Katie, Eli, and Clare as well. Follows the progression of the summer season. Forgotten moments, missed opportunities. Elaborations. Perspectives. 4,850 words.
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The thing Fiona can’t seem to get down is negative space. And Charlie says it’s hard to master, even after seven Drawing from Life classes, so Fiona doesn’t feel bad. But she can’t help looking at her sketch pads, at the way the thing she started out drawing just sits in the middle with all that white — so lonely — and Fiona can’t help filling in a little more around it. Weather she’s drawing Charlie’s pointy shoulders, or a banana, she ends up with a canvas full of charcoal swipes and little curlicues and geometric shapes that could, someday, turn in to patterns for clothing designs.
She can’t quite get it right herself, either. Fiona knows that she has to grow up sometime, that she’s fully prepared to take on the skies, the Caribbean on her own, bare her skin to the beaches… But she can’t shake the feeling of all this negative space buzzing around her. Sure, she counts the furniture (clutter, she thinks, filling up the spaces), logs colors and shades, but she can’t deny how easy it is to simply take Holly J’s hand and feel it all disappear, to press her lips to Holly J’s cheek, hear Charlie ask “So, you have a girlfriend?”
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